I’ve held myself back for far too long. Now, I must fight with everything in me to get out and move forward. It’s time I live up to my own standards, no matter what or how others may feel about it. No more being the martyr, it’s time to be honest with myself about what’s needed to get out of this quicksand. I’ve allowed myself to settle so deep that my body is grasping for air. And now I must build the strength to rise out from this dark heaviness of guilt, fear, settling, and surrendering to a reality that was never mine to begin with…
I will continue to build my strength and know my worth. No longer adopting others’ fates as my own.
I release all that’s holding me down, suppressing my true nature, my true calling. I release the feeling of obligation towards those who aren’t even obliged to care or love themselves properly. I release the guilt of not reaching my highest form before the two most important people in my life left this earth. I release the pain of rejection from not feeling accepted and ridiculed for being different. I release the embarrassment of wanting more and feeling I’m destined for more. I release the old me who believed I didn’t deserve any more than what was in front of me, accepting whoever and whatever that entered my life because to “reject” ,aka discern, will appear as ingratitude for no longer being rejected. Lastly, I release the belief that I have no right to discern who and what enters my life due to fear of misjudging others the way I felt misjudged. I deserve more than what I’ve allowed into my life. It’s time to fully accept my worthiness.
Achieving Metanoia 